Ok, you got me. Your friends family, people you wok with, anyone that cares about you. What - miss the right spot, what if your drugs miss? It's not so easy to die. Do u you want a stroke? I had one at 33. Do u want to see your face not right forever? I saw this at 33. Do u want to be sick for mo's after u get out of the hosp.? I was. want to be scared of not be able to walk, speak, care for your child... I didn't! Somehow I came to believe I was not ready to die. I wanted it so but became scared if I missed.


I have to get a will - depressed and will not, I never put up my mothers monument due to no estate close. I have to file and pay for her 08 return, no help and refuse to leave house, what do I do with my 6 yr old? I can't have sleep overs.... She has no fiends now - see my post on ms brd. She hates me. I could go on for 50 lines -- bottom line -- my child but I am too sick to keep her. So forget the 50 lines and tell me why not risk it and hope for the best - to die!!!!!