where you are coming from, I understand your indecision. I also respect your dealing with the pain. It can be soo unrelenting.
I guess wish I could DO something for you? I want to be a DonQuixote and get on my rickety Dulcinea and grab my spear and well, maybe go attack those stupid docs! HOW DARE THEY? And, you are not the only one here I wish I could be able to do that for! I mean, aren't docs kind of like windmills at times?
Just know that my heart, and mind are there for the asking. As much as I can give to help you thru it all. 's and more 's I just wish they were in person and just rite! - j