My family member does not want to go to therapy with me. Years ago my dad did,and he started to understand. They where very aggravated with me,and didn't understand what I was going through when I was a teenager. I got sent to Military School where my condition got worse. One day in the Mess Hall I was siting at attention,and I had a panic attack. It got worse,they didn't believe me,and I got sent there the next year. I went to the Nurse's office there,and they shook their heads,and told me to leave. That was in the late 1960's. Well to get back on the point,my dad heard of the Phobia Clinic in around 1980. Slowly he started to believe me. He heard other people had the same problem that I had. The obsessions got worse when I was in my middle 30's. I started getting therapy back in the early 1970's,and I am still in therapy. My dads almost 88 years old now,and my sister has been helping me recently,because my dad cannot handle it anymore. My sister knows that I have emotional problems,and she has developed MS. She,and I where getting along,but something strange has started between our personalities. She seems to say the reverse of everything that I say,and this is troublesome to me. She keeps doing it,and starts to say that I'm the one doing it. I have told my doctor of this resent development,and he said it sounds like she has OCD,and wants everything done her way,and I end up getting battered by her when I try to help her. I don't even want to go over there because it's gotten so bad. I'll say on thing,and she says another, and troubles me. She is obsessed with telling me things that I've told her that I cannot handle right now,and she knows it,but does it anyway. She's infuriated with many people around her. I see it,but if she see's it,she won't admit it ,and she will change her story. Now her anger has turned on me,and she said she is going to stop her money support. She moved me up to where she lives to help me. I tried to clean her house,and she didn't like the way I was doing it. She doesn't like my hobbies,what I talk about,my interests,my talents,and the way I talk. When I have left that house recently,I have lied down for 12 hour periods of time just totally exhausted from listening to her putting me down. That's how the relationship has become,and yet she knows that I have emotional problems. I don't feel like getting up anymore. I have a pain in the middle of my chest from the muscles pulling from anxiety. I am obsessed, confusion,aggravation,about her misunderstanding,and making me sound bad.She knows that I have emotional problems,she calls them mental,but she stirs me up anyway. I'm a good person. Now I'm 55,and completely tired of everything,afraid,worried,confused,baffled at these suddenly worse circumstances,because they where bad before. They have been bad for a long time. I have been so misunderstood. I was in a bad work situation,that got worse after 9/11,and I got treated worse by my employer,and fellow employee's. One thing after another,you would not believe it. My sister has set a division between my Dad,and I. She talks bad about him,and my deceased Mother. All of this ,and these conditions that I have explained on some of my other posts are getting to me. I am burdened,and my self worth has been bombarded by my sister,and I don't know why. It might be the MS. My situation is threatened by her continually,and I don't know why she is doing it. I'm more unstable,tormented in my mind,and my doctor who does not like to give medication has upped my medicine a little. I'm on the lowest dose of Xanax,and a low dose of Luvox. He has been treating me for 20 years. Before him I had about 8 other doctors,and 2 hospital stays. I don't have Insurance,and I might end up in the hospital again. I have called my Uncle who is a minister,and a few other people,and they have prayed for me. My Uncle said that my Dad,and my sister are that way because they are in pain. I'm in pain,and my sister taking away finances is heightened my anxiety,and dread of the future,to the extent that is almost unbearable. My sister even said that every time I've ever seen you you where full of stress,so I don't understand why she is putting me down. I live in a rural area,and any major cities are 75,to 85 miles away. I see my doctor 15 minutes ,once every three months now because that's all that I can afford. I'm not stupid,slow or anything like that,and I think that it makes the OCD worse being somewhat intelligent. These thoughts are tormenting me,and I am deeply disturbed deep down,and I wish that I'd just cease to exist at times. I don't know what to do. I feel out of reach of help,and who cares about a 55 year old man. No one has taken a interest in helping me,and that is another hurt. It seems like people don't care anymore. The Government is trying to not give me Social Security Disability. I have a real problem,and even my flesh,and blood family are starting to not care. Excuse me for venting,but I live alone with increasing problems,and I'm worried about them going completely out of control. I don't seem to have control,or security in my life,and I'm worried about loosing it all,and ending up living nowhere,and I'm scared. If I don't get Social Security Disability after court,I have no clue as to what would happen to me. Will someone hang in there with me,and help me through this. Please help me. I'm just a emotional reck right now. People,please,please don't give me any criticism,I can't handle anymore. I you feel like criticizing me,please don't say anything at all,because you will just be adding fuel to my grief.