I am so sorry you are going through this. Can you get on medicaid? Through medicaid maybe you could get a social worker or therapist who could open up some doors that would provide you with additional support and find resources that you don't know exist. I am totally alienated from my only sibling and am on disability. I had a great lawyer. I was in a downward spiral and although i have been depressed and anxious for ages, things have turned for me. I believe in golden safety nets. i really believe that help comes when we least expect it and that at times we are given more than we can bear and that is when the help seems to come and it doesn't seem to be related to how hard we try ourselves.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE
Bobby