Good morning Brokenfriend....Your subject title "death" caught my eye.

Have you been dxed with Bipolar Disorder? I'm sorry you feel hopeless right now and hopefully you'll soon see a little light in that tunnel. I understand that you are depressed but try to remember that the black hole has sides.

Have you posted on the SSD forum? I know that people are usually turned down on their first go at it. Here is the link to that forum...http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum28.html

Talking (venting) about what you are feeling is always a good idea.
And we are always happy to "see" a new face on the sos forum...

Jo directed you to it....http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html