I saw my MS specialist yesterday and now I am right back in my dark hole

It takes me an hour to get there and I always feel like "Dead Man Walking" on the way there.

I don't ever get "Your doing great". Yesterday during the visit we of course did some testing. Hands out in front close your eyes etc. balance is getting worse. Gait is getting worse and now I have developed tremors.

He seems to think I am progressing but wants to take the wait and see for a little bit longer. I do take copaxone everyday and I seem to think if this makes any sense that I feel better Inside?!

Anyway, I again am down in the dumps and I hate this feeling. I guess going to the neurologist is a reality check for me.

"This is never going to go away"!!! Man this sucks.

Thanks for listening to me whine. Can I get some cheese now