Victoria, You must have read my mind- I was just thinking about you the other day..
sorry you've been having a rough time though.

Have you ever tried those special lights? the kind for seasonal affective disorder?{SAD}
I wonder if some of it is from the lack of sunshine?

I know I feel perked up, renewed and refreshed after a sunny day - we have a nice amount of windows facing south and our patio is protected from the wind and faces south also.

We're working on a plan to make a solar heat/sunroom and add some kind of solar water heating system.

And towelhorse,
good to hear you are doing better.