Today is a bad day because the CFS depression is acting up (it's different from the bipolar depression).
Hubby told me that he told one of my male colleagues that I can't handle teaching or other responsibilities early in the morning. He said that I stay up very late and that having to be in to work at 8:00 am is difficult and that it "messes" me "up for the rest of the day" and I won't be able to do my other job duties that day and so forth.
Before hubby told, it was a well known secret -- my group already knew about it and we never talk about it in front of me.
THAT IS HOW I WANTED IT.
That's my business and my choice.
Hubby thinks it is better to tell people that something is going on than to let them think that I am shirking responsibilities. Maybe hubby didn't know that my group already knows. Maybe he was trying to be helpful.
I'm not feeling
helped.
I'm angry and sad. Feel betrayed.
Mostly, I feel shame about being sick.
I'm making a guess that some people withOUT bipolar also suffer from varying degrees of sleep problems. But it is not the same . . . no stigma attached to honest simple text-book insomnia.
And I don't know who to deal with being in at 8:00 am tomorrow.
Freaking out.
M.
And yeah, I know that he was being protective because he is ****** about how the boss is dumping extra stuff on my group now, but, even so, I am still teed off.