Oh Mari, that's terrible! I am sure he thought he was doing the best thing for you at the time but that was a serious breech of trust IMO. I hope you aren't feeling that way still, you shouldn't feel ashamed for being BP, though I can identify with those feelings, that is why I haven't added a BP page to my site. I don't know if I ever will either, but to me that's okay. We all have comfort levels, and it's clear yours was imposed upon. Best of luck with things at work. I'll be thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way.