Julie, I'm new here too, but wanted to send lots of hugs your way. Know that everyone here is ready and willing to listen anytime you need to vent.

Do you belong to a support group where you live? I love having my computer friends, but it is so nice to be able to go to a place and be with real live people that are experiencing the same things that you are. If you aren't, call the NMSS and ask for one in your area. If you ever need to talk, please don't hesitate to email me directly and I will even give you my phone number.

Take care!