Thank you all for your responses. I saw the Dr. yesterday and he feels that the anger is part of both the depression and the pain.
The Dr.'s are saying that I will be at this level or worse for the rest of my life unless I agree to a scar tissue surgery. While I have great respect for my Dr.s I can honestly say I don't believe that the surgery will do anything for me.
I started having a return of symptoms 10 months after the 1st surgery. Who is to say that surgery will not make me worse off than I am now. So, the way I see it is there are 3 possiblities with the surgery, get better, get worse, remain the same. I just don't like the odds. Unless someone can offer me anything different I guess this is it.
I suppose now I have to figure how to move on, and be at peace with this.
Trix