wow heartbreaking is an understatement,

my ex is a bi polar schizophrenic and was able to hide and or contain it to a degree, till a certain thing happened in her life that acted, for lack of better word, as a trigger, and off the deep end she has been ever since, osama and the leader of iraq were both after her,

its a horrible illness, and as far as I can tell I dont think there is a state in the union that has a good plan to deal with mental health, with other than a big band aid, medicate for 15 days calm them down, safe guard them and release them out to the general population, that seems to be the status quo as to state care, unless a criminal act is involved,

now whether this gent was bi polar schizo prior, and it laid dormant and was triggered by the stress of the ms news, or the stress of his friends passing, I dont know.

it would, in my eyes, make more sense, saying this triggered it, then saying the MS caused it, sure I have gotten depressed, at times and snapped(when on high doses of steroids) but i do fix it and i do keep things in check I dont fore see me going over the edge, like this,

have I thought of telling deb to take kids and go yes, why cause i dont want to deal with the guilt I have inside of what my illness is and will do to this family down the road, and that is a possibly not a definite, thanks to some meds.

but I have not done so, for it would not be fair to her or my children they care for me and i for them, so the feelings of what he is doing are there for me but not to the severe degree he has them. which really makes me think this scizo-affective disorder is sort of like the ms disorder dormant till its triggered in a number of us and what triggers it is still open to discussion and debate.

I pray that some miracle graces this families life and lifts them from this pit of despair,