What would you do if you had been sitting at home staring at the four walls for over a week now almost with no people 3-D contact? I have had only been around other people at the most a few minutes here and there this whole month. It is getting to me and driving me crazy. When I did talk to someone today it's all about the family wedding that I was not invited to. I thought that my life was suppose to get better after leaving my abusive husband but it has gotten worse. The family I grew up with deserted me and so did a lot of friends. I had a lot of deaths in my circle of friends. I was never depressed with my husband, angry yes, but never depressed. I hate this. I should have stayed with him and then I would not have this guilt of leaving him and him dying. All my friends are unhappy with their husbands but yet they stay, I'm the one who left and have been miserable ever since.