Natalie8, I will post later for you. For now - I hear you loud and clear in all areas. I too am a germ phobic due to ms.... So don't feel alone; it is ok. We are just trying to do all we know to protect ourself. That is fine and it does not make us strange. I think when you hear my complete story from the mono dx forward it may help you. This I will give you, but it is too long to try to post or pm now. I have been up all night and have to get my kid to school. BTW - never be sorry about how I learned of my MS. It was my choice and I would never take it back. I'm prob 1 in a thousand to make that choice. But, I needed to see it it alone. That is just me. What happened to you was not your choice! It was not right! Take Care ~Sheena~