You are right, Keri. Sometimes you just have to pick yourself up and keep going. Your courage is inspiring. Sometimes I just can't believe there are doctors out there who are that insensitive and that clueless. How would they feel if they were on the other side? Keri, did you find another doctor? Wiz, I was struck by the ballerina story. Cotton balls and a big black hole but few symptoms--wow. I saw my therapist today (80% of her clients have MS) and she confirmed what everyone is saying on this board...that there is no correlation between lesion load and symptoms, necessarily. In fact, she told me that the she has talked frequently with the expert doc. of the MS clinic in my city and they describe it as the "X" factor. No one really knows why a person could have one lesion and lots of symptoms OR many lesions but few symptoms. Obviously there is a lot of uncertainty about how the brain functions. This is why she likes working with MS patients--because she believes that the X factor leaves a lot of room for hope and she has seen people improve against the odds or surprise the docs.