my prayers go out to you in this time of need, dont make any decision in haste, I raised two boys as a sloe parent, and it was hell but would never trade it for anything in the world, and I agree finding the right meds and docs, then u should be able to do it, you and your child, as a team.

as for the doc pushing u to try this med and not helping when u get sick on it, that ***** dont fly with me. that doc would have his ears chewed off, is this a normal thing with this type of med? I also am not familiar with this med, sorry, nor does that seem like a normal way of a doc handling things

but that doc would be on my short list of get new docs list

again try not to despair beyond reasonable thinking and do not make any hasty decisions, this is a decision you will have to live with for a long time.