Thank you for helping. I know I'm a much better parent then her father. He is what one calls a dead beat. Hasn't wked since 2001... A mothers boy and has now put mother above his child. He refused his last weekend, most of Easter and I'm told will not be taking her on his next either. Usually that would be great, but I need the time off to get better.

I'm taking care of her basic needs, but much of nothing more since I got sick. I think it is the sick deal that is making me even consider giving her up, but I've changed my mind. She will stay with me. I am so tired all the time and I can't sleep. Major problem. No the stupid neuro will not give pills. I'm switching on the 15th.

Yes, I have emily lined up to see a psycoanalist (sp) I did this a few days ago. I looked for help a long time back but none in this area so forget that. We don't even have a big sister program and zip for help around the house...

I think I'll be ok now. I needed to vent hear some real people with real advice.

Thank You So Much