No Hope

One of your statements strikes me. It does so because it sounds like me. When the alcohol took over all I wanted was the man I knew and loved to come back. I thought If I love him enough he would change. If I could only make him see how he had changed he would get better. If only.............If only.......for years I tried.

I decided that he wasn't going to make his life better so i had to make mine better. I left him and he took his life.

I felt guilty for a long long time. Then I started to realize that I saved myself because I could. I couldn't save him.

The man I loved was gone long before his death.

I know its hard, I know the guilt, But I also know your life is important your girls are important. Your life still can be beautiful, Your dreams will change but can be wonderful nonetheless.

HANG IN THERE
Dottie

To think I could have stopped him......I too thought that at one time. Then I thought I couldn't get him to stop drinking what makes me think Im powerful enough to have stopped this!