To all who responded so far -- thank you for the supportive words. I can't tell you HOW much better it made me feel. It boosted my spirits. Yes Sally, Vic is quite a wise one. The community on this online forum is a remarkable group.

Vic, I canceled the class and don't feel that guilty. And if this is easier than writing a dissertation I'm thinking I can do this. Boy, that was hell! If I had to do it over again I'm not sure I would or could. I have your words to go back to when I hit the dumps again.

Bird I ate some chocolate icecream I found shoved in the far back of my freezer (forgot I had it) as part of my pity party and I'm feeling calmer. Maybe the chocolate endorphins have kicked in. Maybe it will get rid of the nasty copaxone welt from this morning--yikes, worst one yet.