Everything is just so foreign right now. Eventually though, you will recognize some patterns, giving you some sense of control.
I have recovered enough times that it seems I wouldn't even bother worrying when I go through a difficult time. Things can be frightening though, so we may loop back through the grieving process occasionally. This is actually very common.
Give yourself permission to slack off and/or feel sad sometimes . . . you'll move on when you are ready. Acknowledging your feelings is a great start to healing.
Cherie
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I am not a Neurologist, Physician, Nurse, or Hairdresser ... but I have learned that it is not such a great idea to give oneself a haircut after three margaritas
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