LMAO - sorry, I have strange sense of humor and when I read the some of your post it just made me laugh

Trouble planning, unplannned things and not being in control - MS kinda throws alot of things out the window. Control what you can and the rest, go with the flow. Pick and choose what's really important to you and leave the rest if your not up to it.

Trust - There are very few people I trust anymore.

Faith - *sigh* this disease never really brought up faith or spirituality for me. Although when my current neuro saw my cervical spine MRI he looked and acted a little freaked out when he realized I am still walking unaided. I realized a long ago the c-spine lesion are not good but his reaction made a large impact on me. As I was driving home the only thing that played over and over in my mind was - but for the Grace of God with tears rolling down my eyes - not the best thing when driving

Hope - for the most part I have hope. Hope for a cure of this disease so my children or their children do not have to experience what this disease can do. And, I hope to live my life with dignity inspite of this disease.

MRIs - I have almost fallen asleep during them

I do believe our paths are mapped you but I also believe we have choices along the way that can change the outcome of our paths - good or bad but I am not impying we can change what happens to us medically. My life could have gone so many different ways. I have actually had a few friends and a therapist who were shocked my life has turned out as it has. I have no explanation other than guidance by a higher power.

Your posts say alot about you as a person and I think your going to do okay in you ability to deal with this disease. I suspect, in time, you will be one of those who offers support to others with MS.