BMW
You cannot change the past. I am a true believer in that what is going to happen is going to happen no matter what and talking about the past is not going to change that.
My DH was in a horrible plane crash aboard an aircraft carrier that no one should have survived. He not only survived, but not one person was injured. His aircraft, of course, did not survive! It's at the bottom of the Atlantic Ocean off the coast of Virginia somewhere.
I was also in a plane crash in which I should not have survived but I walked away from a totally demolished plane as did the pilot.
When it's your time, it's your time.
Please don't beat yourself up for talking about yourself. You shared some very personal things about yourself because you trust your friends here. Don't feel like you've put a curse on others because of that trust. We care.