Give me your hand.

If you are alive, you are in some form of pain. Could be you stubbed your toe or you're still nursing a broken heart.
That is not a valid reason to stop living.

I need you to fight back Jeanie. Giving up let's it win. IT is any obstacle in our way at any moment.

You have not exhausted all your options yet.
And there are always options.

Find a doc willing to listen. Go "Doc shopping", if you will. There are many positive things out there to ease suffering. I turned to liquor after the MS diagnosis.

I busted my L-4 too.
And my hip.
And my pelvis.
And shattered my ankle.
And my tibia and fibia.
Broke four of my ribs.
Had a concussion.
Coma for 6 days.

And until I lose 50 pounds... I can't get my hip fixed. (Never healed right. Ossification and now avascular necrosis. Laymans terms: Body produced too much bone at the break. Now that bone is dead and dying).
The irony of losing the weight? If my hip was OK, I wouldn't weigh this much.

All this happened in a car wreck 3 weeks after my wife left me. (Good riddance, bee-yotch!)

Please understand beautiful. I'm not trying to compare scars here or even dumb it down with "everybody hurts", or downplay what you are saying. I only tell you my story so you know I'm not blowing smoke up your [pick an orrifice].

FIGHT BACK.

Get mad. Get mad enough to say, "I am not going to live this way". And then realize you must take action against your oppressor. In this case, pain.

You are not alone.
You are one of us.
And we are here to help.