I'm in The Netherlands. Which is about half the size of New York, in square miles. LOL That is why I will not be more specific because of internet anonimity.

Simple idea for your terrace: Just a thought, though, you know whether you are up to it, I don't. It's just I have been reading along on posts and I know you are very depressed, find it really hard to do anything at all, so I wanted to tell you a few small things that might possibly be feasible. Any kind of gardening helps me, I know that.

Soak the whole thing with a weed-killer that is environmentally acceptable, that way after a few years you will be able to grow things in the soil again if you want.
After that you could reclaim it bit by bit, like I'm doing. Get a big plant pot with at least one hole in the bottom. You could even use a tub they use for mixing mortar, they also come in white these days. As long as you make a hole in it for excess water. That way, you only need to water the one thing. And once you have more pots, you could buy an extension to the hose which costs like 10 dollars and it sprinkles the lot. Tomatoes, especially small ones, are not hard to grow. Leeks too. Could come in handy with food prices soon to soar even more. That is one of my reasons to go through with it now. Putting 4 potatoes in a big thing like that will give you at least 2 kilo's per potato in the fall and all you do is water them.


I've got many animals, really. I only notice that when I talk about it to people. I have got one German Shepherd, two cats, two budgies and two ferrets. The dog and one cat are female. The dog is called Chica. I bought her off someone who breeds them for farmers. She is amazing. My cats are really sweet and affectionate, as are the ferrets. The budgies just natter a lot among themselves, I put them in the kitchen so I don't hear them so loudly. Whenever I go in there they start calling me, and also when they hear me moving around after waking up in the morning. But they do not sit on my finger, I did not train them enough when they were younger.

Yes, even a mobile phone will do the trick, at least the kind my daughter has got. She takes pictures with it then connects it to the PC and puts them on an external hard disk. I have not got a single presentable picture of myself, do you know that? Can't believe it really. Found that out when I wanted to do my profile here. I have always really had a thing about having my picture taken, even as a kid. I do have a picture of the dog with one of the cats, but only when she was like 6 months old. She is now 3 years. I might have a suitable boy for her soon, so she can have pups at least once in her life. She is more than ready for it. A friend of mine spotted one and she is establishing contact for me.

You make me laugh. You are sixty-four, very fat, you have two boy friends and you call yourself a beggar? A lot of people don't even have one. I don't.
Just not quite ready. Had a lot of things to get over for a few years.

I don't fully understand what you mean by irritability. On this site people use certain words that seem to be quite clear to yourselves, standing for a whole complex of things, but I don't know the "lingo". Could be an American thing. Possibly, people around here just use a different word you know.