Linda, my heart goes out to you for the pain you must have been through. I'm another who's visiting from a different forum so I'm unable to offer you anything but support right now.
You will however, get to meet some wonderful people in this forum, and I hope that some-one will come along soon to help you understand the things that are worrying you the most.
In the meantime, welcome to NeuroTalk from me Linda. I hope to see you in some of the other forums later.
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