I would be so in two minds if I were you. Like: I am not giving my kids their mom to be there. But at the same time: What if I am there and afterwards or on the spot I freak out, how would they like them apples. Okay, they understand that, but they still miss me there. Understanding is not the same as liking.

Tough one. Maybe it helps if you think that you are showing them: opt for yourself so you can be there for your loved one's tomorrow. Besides: if you give them a spotless childhood, they will be abnormal. Nothing and no-one to complain about or blame, right?

{{{Mari}}}