I just read your post. Yes,Yes,Yes !!!!!!!!!!! I feal that exact thing that you mentioned at the end of your first post on this thread. It's like something that I have written,but you hit the nail on the head. I feal traumatized after a obsessive/compulsive flux,when I know that the things aren't real,but I cannot shake the thoughs,or feelings. Yes,I know exactly what you are talking about,and that's one of the things that I experience. !!!!!!!! I have the periods of depression also,that last for a long time. I have had a few times in my life when I have felt like I was on the top of the world,and I had tremendous Joy,and felt great. I still had the anxiety,but it wasn't as bad. The panic attacks had stopped,but came back. I have more symptoms,but I won't go there right now. I've already written allot of them on my other posts. Brokenfriend