Dear blessed BP. Mixed emotions, I don't know. However, you will find your time to grieve. You knew her like no one else. You were there. I wasn't. I can only explain my grief of my husband and father of my girls. You loved her, I loved him. Where do we go from here? This site and everyone's will power to get us through the " next day". What now? I guestioned it, believe it, feel it, no matter, we all must take our OWN time to deal with it. Mercy

Take all the time you need, we all are here to listen.