Agreed Bobby.

Oh Mari, I am so sorry you have this anxiety like that, I am glad you vented about it though, I am sure it's miserable to live with that. I keep lorazepam in my purse for anxiety attacks out in the world and I don't care WHO sees me take one if I am having severe anxiety. I hate that feeling, like someone behind a counter can refuse you or give you ripples of difficulty to get what you want. Or the worse fear, that something else from beyond the store having to do with insurance can make it so you have to walk away empty handed.

I have medicare part D and things change alot on their formulary so I am always anxious until I see the scripts come through the window and into my hands. I ran into trouble with Jackie's medicaid and I was so angry, instead of anxious I was fuming. Nothing could be done that wasn't done though, it was medicaid refusing to pay for his risperdal in spite of a increase in dosage. I had already started it assuming they would never refuse to fill his medication like that but they did and I had to get NINE emergency pills from the pharmacy PLUS drop his dosage back down from the already begun increase, so it set us back for a week and I was so angry.

It went two days PAST the normal due date too, I don't know what the trouble was but it better NOT happen again or I will call the media. AND deal with it THAT way because you cannot just stop that kind of medication like that, I would rather it was ME that it stopped like that for NOT my poor autistic son. But I am glad I don't have to go without the medicine, I remember how awful it is to be without it because two years ago I forgot to get my abilify filled in time for when I ran out and I had to go one day without it and the racing thoughts were so bad I could not even pray one complete thought as thoughts kept overlapping!

I'm glad you walked away from the pharmacy with what you needed, I would have had the same feeling of dread in my gut over the insurance fiasco you went through, but you got through it! You knew it was accepted there and you made HIM see it was too so GOOD for you! You should be feeling good, but I understand you don't. You probably felt drained emotionally from having to appear stable, I know that feeling. When I go shopping I have a bubbly personality but there are times my mouth chooses NOT to work properly and I can't make the words I am thinking and I think to myself, "My God I hope they don't think I am an idiot for messing up that last sentence!"

Anyway I am hoping you feel better soon, I hope my sharing some of my recent experiences helped you to feel less isolated, that was my intent by sharing it.