nik-key I grieve with you right now. I am reading your thread as if it was coming from my 11 year old. God, she was so wrapped around his finger. I really believe your father didn't account for the pain and suffering he would inflict on his beloved ones. I really belive it to be a selfless act. He loved you and doted on you. This is just so awful. Just reading this thread, I feel you were at the top of his ladder, much like my 11 year old, he just didn't know how to handle his pain. Just like you my little one will never understand.

I was going to come here again tonight for the much needed sympathy, but willed myself around it. My girls are too demanding, and I am exhausted. Why, Why can't my family and friends see I need a break? I am alone with 2 little girls, I have no life. I love them, but just need some peace.

God bless you Nik-key.