""I told my friend last night, that I feel just absolutly robbed! I didn't even try to express my anger. We are close, and she said in time you wont feel that way. I said listen to me when I tell you this, you can ask me every year until the day I die....and I will tell you then, what I will tell you now........I will never be able to heal from this. AS much as I love him, as much as I am able to, I forgive him. But the fact remains........I feel just absolutly robbed!! He chose to leave me, and I will never be ok again for it."
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Nik-key you say so much in these short few sentences.
Of corase you feel robbed /gyped / riped off

...just to start .
You can still heal and still be feeling like you were robbed. some day after many baby step of day by day minute by minute the inside pain will lessen . That dose not meen you wont still feel like you were riped off and that he chose to take himself away. BUT YOU CAN HEAL!!!!! And we are all here to help you and offer all we can in our own ways. and ya know they say ...
THERE IS STRENGTH IN NUMBERS
keeping you in my prayers for healing peace and low pains ((((nik-key))))
PEACE

BMW