Manda It's hard, I know. I've lost several family members and it never gets any easier.....I loved my Grandma (we called her Mimi) and miss her every single day. Have you tried a grief support group? There are many that meet at local churches - or there are online support groups. There is one that helped me immensely when my husband passed away. The address is www.groww.org and they have forums for just about every type of loss. It might help you.

I hope you're feeling better today. It's not unusual for certain situations to trigger the "grief bursts" you're experiencing. Everyone grieves in their own way....there isn't a right or wrong way to do it. It's very individual.

Sending great big hugs your way...........