Thank you. My sister has MS. My mother had MS. Her mother had ALS. There is some neuro flaw in my family line.

I have a car. I'm a good driver. I have a perfect record. There are allot of bad drivers out there, and I'm very aware of it. I would have made a great traffic cop. lol I pull off the road when I can because there are allot of tailgaters out here.

People total cars hitting Deer out here. So I make sure that I keep a proper breaking distance for a emergency stop if needed. I said that to say,I'm a very good driver. Driving sometimes removes the thoughts. Gas is going up though.


I'm going to see if I can withdraw my 401K. I have some money in there. Not allot. Waiting for this SSD hearing is depleting my Trust Fund,and now I'm going to have to use my 401K. If the people let me withdraw it,I will start spending it in about September to pay the bills.


My lawyer requested a hearing in December,but he said that my case is still being evaluated by Social Security Disability. I hear that I'm in a hard state to get it.The web, says you have to have a Specialist lawyer in Social Security Disability cases. I'm in a Commonwealth State. If the Judge declines me,what do I do then? Do I take it to the Supreme Court?


I've had problems with this since I was about 13,or 14 years old,but now it's really taking a toll on me. I have life long undeniable problems. I don't know why I'm going through this hell. My chest hurts from the anxiety right now. I have a pain from anxiety that isn't letting up in the lower left part of my chest under my ribs. My neck is cramping on one side. I've got anxiety all over.


I've never seen my sister like this. She is usually angry at someone,but not me. I even wonder if she's trying to push me over the edge. I've never heard her talk to me the way she's talking to me recently,and It's a sudden thing,out of the blue. It's like she is on the edge of hysteria.I live by myself about 5 miles away.She did scream at me on the telephone about five years ago. Her temper flaired,and she let me have it with both barrels. I didn't do a thing to deserve that. From what I understand,they had a problem with her at work. She was angry with me for six months. I didn't do anything. She went through a period of anger at me that I didn't deserve. The same thing is happening to her again. BF