I am sitting here thanking God that men have to right to cry when necessary, regardless of my father's beliefs.

I've been going to my doctor's more frequently because of alot of new problems I have been having. Constant tremors 24/7, etc. Than went to 2 more doctors and today I found out officially that I have Multiple Sclerosis (MS) on top of everything else. In other words even though I have this now I still have to contend with the peripheral neuropathy and CRPS which now covers almost 80% of my body. I get home tonight and I let loose. I cried and cried. Partially out of anger and partially because I don't feel I deserve this and I'm only 43.

The pain so unbelievable, and I hate the drugs with a passion. But my doctor says I am now "Opiate Sophisticate". Which means that over the last few years I have built up a immune to most all pain medications and really get no relief from most anymore unless they are in really high doses. Sucks big time. Oh well. Tomorrow is another day. Chin Up!...

Mark