Wow, you've suspected for 8 years?
I didn't suspect a thing until a week before I got the MS dx.
I attended a seminar for MS Newbies last year. The shrink who spoke insisted that there are 4 stages to accepting MS. Seems like the 1st stage took about a year to get over the denial, followed by some other equally drawn-out confused states of mind.
I had a private conversation w/him and said I hadn't experienced any of those stages. He assured me they'd come.
Happily, he was wrong. I had just one bad day. BUT, I don't have blindness or paralysis or anything terrible. Just numbness and some other random stuff. So I really don't have much to complain about.
There are so many folks around here who really struggle and have room to complain, but choose not to. Really admire them.
So, allow yourself a few days/weeks to adjust. Surround yourself by people who love and care about you. Talk about it -- such a weird disease, isn't it? Then get on with it. Glad you have your DH by your side.
Remember we are a caring bunch here at NT. Come and hang out any ole time. Keep smiling and transforming!