dear BT,
i can be your nurse. i've been one for 37 yrs

mostly NICU but i still know enuf.
i still remember the exact circumstances when i got the news. even tho i was expecting it i was still shocked. i did have one good cry at a friend's and then went into my get info mode. the knowledge gave me control of an out of control moment in my life.
TAKE BACK YOUR PERSONAL POWER bt. your wt loss is incredible to me.
i've been struggling in that dept for a long time. i lost 40lbs and gained back 15. the gang on my thread has been there thru the good and bad times and we can be here for you.
i'd like to encourage you to make a plan of action, or, a plan of care for yourself, just like you would a pt. like
1. get your vits
2. eat small meals to increase your protein
those 2 alone will give you more energy to cope with this dx.
don't worry about exercise right now. just work on strengthening your body and mind nutritionally. hire a RD for a few visits if need be.
maybe it's time to visit your pcp to help set up your plan.
feel free to PM me. i care.