Jan I'm so glad you found your way over here! I agree with what the others have said....you don't want to remember those dates and with good reason. Doug and Cindy made awful choices.

I have absolutely no memory of our son's funeral and the only reason I am able to remember the date is because it's in his obituary pasted in the two scrapebooks I made of his life. How can a whole 31 yrs. fit in two scrapbooks?

You've been left with an awful legacy and no one to really share it with. I am so sorry. That's why we are here....to talk about the pain we are feeling...the depression and the anger. And there is always the WHY? Not to mention GUILT.

Have you ever gone to a support group? Have you read any of the stickies at the top of this forum? I'm glad you have found us Jan.