well, I wonder if I can admit that one of the reasons why I came "home"

is that I have been wondering a lot about life and death lately.

I wonder if I can now share that my youngest brother was in suicide watch recently and that really hammered me. So I came lurked here and read a lot of posts for awhile...and I found comfort.

At about the same time, my younger brother found something on his diaphragm and lost 20 lbs drastically. I am really fortunate that my brothers really love my wife and she really comforted him about the "growth" but we are both troubled by his drastic lost of appetite.

I find myself asking life and death questions almost quotidianly as of late and wonder if that is why I can't sleep without aids lately.

but I am always glad that I can click the mouse three times and find myself in SOSanas and can say to myself, "it's good to be home"

(sure, copyright violation of the Wizard of oz, dopey moi. LOL)

anyways, just yakking...