I am feeling a whole lot of pain today. I am still working full time, long hours..sigh. Is it crazy to try to be so stoic through the pain.. I feel if I give in to it, that it will be the end..I mean what will I do then? It is raining and cool and dreary here in Cincinnati. I have the trusty heating pad..but grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,,it hurts.
I am afraid of becoming dependant on narcotics so I have been taking advil and Neurontin and an occasional tramadol. I have hydrocodone but it scares me. I have to stay employed and it makes me stupid but not really sleepy but very absent minded. The crazy part is that I was hurting so much that I almost fried my liver with advil, my levels were really high from somany ...at times I was taking 800 mg every four hours for weeks. Maybe a real pain pill would be healthier?
I have a "collapsed L5 -S1 and a bone spur affecting my right side which hurts hip, thigh, calf and foot and makes it very weak. I am waiting for my surgery to be scheduled. I just fgot news today that both my supervisors say they want to save my job for me...but HR emailed and said that I have not met my FMLA i year requirement. I need to stay until September 1 for that. I do not know whethet to try to wait and push through it or just go for th surgery and hope for the best.I mean they already say that the nerve damage may be already permanent. I am 49 and have been battling the bone spurs for 20 years. Does anyone know what the heck causes them?? Sorry to rant...