I am not sure if my mode is denial, acceptance but not giving in, going on with life, learning but living... they all seem to cross-over on one another.

There are times you can't deny this disease... like when you have a new symptom and you have to learn to deal with it, or when you are in the middle of a flare. Other times, when you are just in the midst of life, what is wrong with forgetting about this disease? I mean, is that really denial? Do people with HIV think about it everyday, or do they just deal with it when they have to.

I am thinking about dealing with it when I have to. Otherwise, there are so many questions that can get your feathers up that you may neve rhave to worry about...

Planning, yes, planning is good. Having provisions set up is good. Kinda like when you plan a cookout, you have to have provisions for bad weather. Well, make the provisions, but plan on the cookout...

I see that as life, not denial... but, what do I know. I am not sure what I know, feel, or think right now.

I agree with aftermynap... what ever... just live....