I dont normally post here.Ihope you dont think i am butting in.
I do lurk often though.
It sounds to me from the way you describe things that you did great!!!
Does'nt sound to me like you ruined anything!!
I am sorry but it sounds to me like you have been waaayy more patient than i ever would have been!!!
Communication is the key to a good relationship.Without it.You have nothing!
If he acts different toward you once you tell him your true feelings.If i were you, i might sit down and rethink the reasons i am in the relationship.
Because if he only acts happy when your pretendingto be happy thats just not fair to you!!!You deserve to be with someone that wantsto tell the world you are his girl!!!!!!!!
You deserve that!!
If you settle for less than -thats what your gonna get....
He will treat you the way you teach him to treat you.
If you stand up for yourself and dont cave in.He may walk away but then you will know he was'nt who you thought he was.Do you really want to spend your time with someone that is pining away for someone else.
I m sorry i dont mean to sound harsh but you deserve so much more than this!!!
Would'nt you rather know the truth now?
Rather than spend 5 -8 more months of your life with him-then mayb find out what he is all about .
I dont believe it's being pushy.You have a right to have someones undivided attention!!!You should'nt have to share him with an old memory!!
If you are giving your whole heart and soul to this person.Why is it so much to ask to be introduced as his girl?
Just my 2 cents...
~Kell~