I am actually realizing defeat is the out come anyway i go. Its to late even if the Hyperbaric or the Ketamine works my life is so screwed up the stress would upstart it within seconds. My friends are gone. My best friend that i depended on and was always there for me has abandon me and could careless now. My family is by law family but is so distant from me its not even funny. Basically i am just forced to sit here and await for it to attack my brain like it did on January 28th, 2008. Only this time i will not come back.
Well sorry anyone has to listen to me.