Hi Mitch and welcome to NT. You have received great advice. Sorry your going through so much. I noticed on your profile you said if you do not get help in the next five...

Please know this is a great place for support and there are many areas to get just that. I hope you come back on to read all the replies. No matter what goes on in your life just do one thing. Look at those babies and know they need their daddy to help them get through this too. That is the best reason to keep going. Hugs.