One big, warm, tight, hug, handshake and howdy, moose-size official type welcome to the site. This place is amazing!

We have many members here who understand and can help. I'm so sorry for the fight you are in. But I am glad you were not 'successfull'.

I'll pose some questions to you that you don't have to answer here... What was the trigger 12 years ago? If pills ain't cutting it, what alternative treatments have you tried? (Hypnosis? Herbal remedies?) Tried religion? Surrendering to a higher power? The Christ, Buddha, Muhammed etc.?

There are always positive choices. I know it's hard to see them when you just want the pain to end.

Keep looking.

Because;
You are not alone.
You are one of us.
And we are here to help.