Mari,

Seriously don't be so upset, which I personally know is easier said than done. I can't even count the number of times I've been in that situation. I either can't shut up, or can't think of a dang thing to say. Either way it feels awkward and I'm honestly not sure what to do, either. As far as sleep goes, are you on klonapin or lorazepam to help you relax enough? It's working somewhat for me.