Brokenfriend, I have gone through exactly what you are going thru now, I will lift you up in prayer , and just know that when things get tough , that you ARE NOT ALONE ever. God never sleeps or gets tired of the sound of your voice, keep praying and believing that He will take care of your situation .I am believing Him for your situation. Right now things are rough , but it will not last forever. God bless you Anglwing