My aneurysm ruptured 12 years ago. My doctor told me that there was no reason for me to be alive. I have such awful pain in my head. They say it is nerve damage. I am grateful I got to see my grandchild born and my youngest children grow up, but to think that in a few seconds my life changed in such a way that no one I know can understand. I can no longer drive, work or even hold a baby. There must be a reason I lived. Is life not funny??