Hi everyone,
I've been thinking about you all and wondering how you are doing but haven't been able to sit down at the computer. I am having a terrible flare up in the sacro area so I've spent most of the last 2 1/2 weeks in lying down. After sucking up the pain as much as I could & trying to do the necessary things in life to get by I finally broke down today and spent the afternoon in bed crying. I just can't take this pain anymore. It feels like someone has a knife in my sacro area and is twisting it. I can't get in to my PM for an injection for another week and a half and won't go through the ER thing again. So I turned to the "legal" drug and had a couple of glasses of wine. Remember reading somewhere that alcohol is a vasodilator. Anyway, I slept for a couple of hours and am sitting at the computer which I couldn't do earlier today. I am just so sick and tired of how the medical community treats those of us with chronic pain - like we're drug seekers or crazy or just trying to get attention or whatever. And those people that are so anti-drug. If they had to live with my pain for a month they would be begging for drugs.
Anyways, this pain flare has just totally worn me down physically and mentally.
Linmarie