I just read the posts by Wiix & Baxter. Wiix, I have epilepsy. Do you know or think you do? Either way, you should see your neurologist. Maybe he can find a certain thing that needs looking at, to help you 'feel better' and you then can try different meds to help you. Also, I know what it's like to 'not have a mom'. My mom died of cancer 3 months before my 9th birthday. But perhaps you'd say it's worse to have a mom who doesn't seem to care. I was too embarrassed to ask my dad 'girl stuff' & a mom coulda helped. All sorts of little things. When I was going to get married, so was my GF. Her, her mom & I went to the bridal salon when she tried on her dress, when she was putting it on & said "Here mom, hold my watch" I started to cry cuz I knew I'd never be saying that to my mom. I'm home alone alot too. (BTW, I'm 50) Mostly my kids are at school, work or out w/friends and I can't look forward to my DH coming home cuz many times he is out of town. (June 2 he starts his longest trip....till mid. Sept. Only able to come home every other weekend.) I don't drive & as I said, my kids are usually not home to take me places. So I go without. I too am close my one of my dogs. One mostly lays on the coach all day but my other one is great. She is so soft, like my big live stuffed animal. I talk to both of them too. I had a terrible ache in my head & it hurt so much, they looked & knew something was wrong, your pets can 'read you'. Cheer up hun.