Well i went to neurolgoist yesterday and he wants me to go for an mri and blood work i went for the blood work today and mri on tuesday may 27 than i have to meet back with him on june 12 to discuss my options he thinks i should try ect before the vns implant my therapist and primary do not recommend that because of memory loss and i already have some of that do to my medication. i also cant even hold a converstation at this point it is hurting my famly to see me like this. I was very down yesterday because i thought i was just going to go get the surgery and everything would be ok in a couple of months but it doesnt look like that to me i have lost my job and everything do to this illness i feel like i am fighting a battle and the illness is winning when i was young i was a straignt a student with plans of going to college and now i dont even know who i am when i look in the mirror.